“Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.”
John 15:13

Let me just shoot this out there- I am clingy. I like attention and I have a serious texting issue. I want to spend time with the people I care about and I can be overbearing.

Now that we have that out of the way.

We all have flaws. Some more than others and I have discovered one of mine is I am passionate about everything. EVERYTHING. I can’t even brush my teeth without passion.

In some areas this is great. I get stuff done. I chase after my dreams. There is a lot that is accomplished because of my Type A, all or nothing personality. I can lead or administrate and I don’t have a problem expressing myself or standing up for my beliefs. I can be in front of others. I love the spotlight and I’m most comfortable in a group when I’m the leader of something.

But in other areas- this can be bad. I’m dramatic.

I’m dramatic and I like attention and can be whiny when I don’t get it.

If we were honest with ourselves I think a lot of people are like this.

I like having someone to talk to. Someone to hold me. Someone to show me affection. Someone to laugh with and to call me pretty.

This stems from a mix of things.

First of all, I’m human. Second of all, I came from a very affectionate household and had parents that loved and cared for one another and want that same love. Third, my broken marriage left me feeling severely neglected.

These are probably the top three reasons.

It’s amazing how when you do some self-introspection you discover where you are truly lacking.

But I know I am also capable of walking away from someone that I feel is toxic to me. It may take time, it may take an awakening. But I know I can do it.

God has taught me that I can loose something I thought I needed in order for Him to teach me something I wouldn’t have learned otherwise.

After my marriage fell apart, I was sitting in my parent’s guest bedroom closet. The tears were falling onto my Bible.

“I can’t do it Lord. I can’t do this. It’s too hard.”

Tears flooded my eyes and the verses became fuzzy.

I was tired of sleeping in that big, cold bed. I was done. No one to hold me. No one to comfort me. No one to kiss me. No one to call me pretty.

Alone.

Go to bed beloved.

I heard the voice of the Holy Spirit.

“I can’t,” my sobs made my voice weak.

Get up, and go to bed.

I can not explain to you what happened next except only to say that I crawled to my bed and got in and Jesus held me. The angels surrounded my bed as I hugged my stuffed animal and fell asleep.

Oh Lisa. If you only knew what God had in store for you.

I like attention that is true, but what is true love? What is true admiration? what is true companionship?

Well, the Bible tells us, when someone is willing to die for you- I would say that constitutes true companionship.

Whether that’s a friend, a lover, or a family member. If someone would die for you I would say that’s the ultimate meaning of love.

So what’s my point?

Well, Jesus died for us.

I know that it’s probably not much consolation sometimes, not that it’s a small thing, but because sometimes it’s hard to find comfort in someone we can’t physically see. But when you are feeling down because you feel neglected, remember that you have a Savior that showed you were worth dying for.

He died for us. He comforts us. And when there is no one to hold us, He holds us.

You are loved.
You are valuable.
You are useful.